Pre-Birthday Obstacle

As we know, every year we celebrate our birthday. Either we celebrate it with our friends or maybe just by our self, thinking about how many things we've done. Did we ever do good things? How many times we hurt others? How any times we being hurt by others? Yes, there's must be a little regret snuck up in our hearts of something we've done in the past. And those regrets has their own portion, sometimes it's big, sometimes it's just a tiny wee bit, but sometimes it's a regret we never forget since long time ago.

Yes, I do have those kind of regret. But thankfully not about my love life, my love life has proven doesn't have any humongous regret. My regret is, why I don't learn music since a little and why I don't ask for it since I was a child. Well, maybe it's because I'm still a child at that time, don't know what I'm gonna do with my life. And unfortunately, I don't have a good role model to look up to until I realized my role model is my own uncle. I took that realization at age 15, and I decided I will look up to him and take all the goodness he had. You can't avoid that my uncle has his own bad days and bad habits, but I do love my uncle, he's a cool guy.

Finally when I was in the 10th grade, I decided to take the entertainment deeper, because those industries makes me happy every single day. I was the captain of the dance team, conductor in the choir, a Master of Ceremony in everybody's birthday. Yeah, I was famous in my high school, of course for my better or for my worse. When I'm in college, since day 1, I already fall in love with my choir team. Rascacielos Choir, RASCHO for short. I do love RASCHO, no matter how many trouble I've been, as long as I'm with RASCHO, it felt easier. And because I love music too much, my duty as a college student doesn't go very well. My score drop, I got stuck because I haven't took this one class so I can't have the final presentation for my thesis.

Oh, by the way, RASCHO is participated in NFF (National Folklore Festival) that being held in the University of Indonesia. So, we kinda felt under pressure because last year we are in the bottom of the winner list, last place. It's not because we're not good, but a miscommunication between the committee and us. We use a melodic musical instrument since we only allowed for a rhythmic musical instrument. And this year we have to be more careful and do our best to pay what we done before. We are so busy for this last couple months, practice and more practice everyday until one by one our member got sick.

What makes everything so hard to do is, I don't have time with my friends. I felt like I neglected them. But I have to focused on this competition because I said before, I do love music and I want live in music industries. But some of my friends is not quite understandable and won't understand my circumstances. Well, you can't hope a lot of people to understand you all the time.

-Luthfie-